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Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • I am 43 today. :)

    Although I dislike the odd-numbered ages (they really just don't sound as cool as the even-numbered ones), I don't mind "getting older." I mean, I'm only 1 day older than I was yesterday. I've still not found the wand that makes turning any age a magical event. (If I do, I'll be sure to let you know.)

    This past years has seen many great changes in my life, most of them having to do with my health even though there have been some new additions in my life and the passing away of "old" circumstances.

    I could sit and analyze, but I have an new friend who's an Aries, so I let him have the Overthinking Job. lol

    I am... Well, I think I'm fine. I mean, all things considered. There are the struggles and challenges, but they're no more or less difficult than those of other times. Am I bothered? Not really. I tend to meet all challenges with words to my Spirit Guides: If I have to do this, I expect all of YOU to go through this with me.

    That probably makes me sound as delusional as, say, talking to a burning bush, but I feel better about it. hehehe

    All is well. It' all okay. But I think I'm ready for more than okay. Danny's taken to saying that Okay is not okay. I've told him it's way better than BAD. He says our lives are boring. I say worry-free. Which they are. For the most part. I tend to search for silver linings, so even boring has its place.

    Do I have great plans? I am finally going to meet someone that's I've only known online. I know it's pretty much become a common practice, but I've held off. He's from San Fran and is intelligent, funny and spiritually engaged. Triple threat! I hear he's good in bed, too. (Chalks up brownie points...) He arrives later today. There's a very good and real chance that I'll have BIRTHDAY SEX, so all is well in that area. :D I've been delighted to find someone who does not require an explanation when I broach such topics as Lightworking or energy grids. I've not had anyone I could do that with and still claim as a potential partner. Is this serious? There is the chance for that, too, but I am so not jumping the gun.

    I've missed writing. My brain makes it hard for me to pay attention but I know I'm often just so random, you've not noticed. I need a reminder to come here. To write. To be engaged. I have hot pink stickies. I think that should work.

    As usual, I've said a few things and feel like I've said nothing. But I know the only to start writing again is to just DO EET! So I'm doing. :P

    I love you...GFW

Thursday, 06 August 2009

  • Lightworkers, Star Seeds and Others

    I've found a place for Lightworkers, Star Seeds and other multidimensional beings to come together with like minds around the world.  There are tons of activities and opportunities to learn and share our unique qualities. I've only just registered, and I'm excited about finding a place where I can join others in group efforts to be more and do more.

    When I first discovered that I was a Lightworker, I looked for a way to meet others with similar outlooks and goals. I found many people here in Xanga who use the Living, Loving Light to do good works. With an attitude of Service to Others, I've also wanted to join my Creative Energy with people who are seeking to add that Love to the collective consciousness in an effort to stop humanity from slowly killing itself.

    I believe I have found those people.

    Visit here and see if this is something you're intested in doing.  I'm listed as 4Winds there (they asked for a short name). Tell them I sent you.

    I love you...GFW

Wednesday, 05 August 2009

  • 11:11

    I see it a lot. On my computer, clocks around my house, various random numbers (Once in Neopets, it was the amount of change on some stock I'd bought: +11.11).. There are many times when I'll notice 11:10, then 11:12, skipping 11:11 altogether. I see other numbers like 10:10, 12:12, 3:33, 12:34 (which is one of my roommie's numbers...) at different times, too. Not so much 5:55, which is supposed to also be significant in the spiritual world, 5 being the perfect number (I'd read somewhere).

    When I Google 11:11, many different things come up. I've found this observance to be interesting.  And this site seems to have one of the most popular explanations.

    As with all signs (including dreams), I think personal explanations are the best. I mean, to you Snake may represent Evil, Sin, Man's Downfall, etc. To me, Snake represents change, the shedding of the old skin. What are your interpretations of repeating numbers? Just coincidence? Or something more?

    I love you...GFW

Tuesday, 04 August 2009

  • Yes

    I'm here. And I'm hoping to actually STAY here...and add things to my blog. 

    I'm just so sleep deprived, most of the time I don't even know my own name. Well, my real one, at any rate. lol I've just fallen into a kind of lull in my life. I'm not complaining. I see my blessings. I've just not been motivated to DO much of anything...

    ...except walk. Yep. I carry my MP3 player and shake my nearly-bare ass up and down the side streets, trying not to dance to the tunes playing in my ears. I purposely loaded music that is mostly dance music. I'm not even going to tell you which singers I have listed. It should be enough to note it's mostly pop with some techno thrown in. Old and new pop, even.

    I've lost 35lbs. walking. And mostly avoiding carbs. I do enjoy the endorphins, of course, even if I pay for them later with fibro flares. There really is no balancing any of this. I've tried. No, I just walk and hurt and if I sit too long, I ache, so I walk again.

    Now that I'm talking about it, I'm realizing I've been sitting for some time. I think this calls for...another walk! Let's see if I can make it down the road and back before it rains...

    <pause>

    Just in time, I think. I hear thunder. Of course, while I was walking, my heavily clouded sky cleared just enough for the sun to remind me I have blue eyes that are sensitive to sunlight. And I was out without my sunglasses. And the muscle area near the top of my left shin decided it was going to hurt me. It's not a real muscle pain. It doesn't encompass an entire muscle at all. It only feels like a muscle ache. Fibromyalgia is the best for "stupid" pains...

    So now I'm inside feeling the blessed coolness of  my swamp cooler. My hair and clothes are still plastered to me, but I'll dry out eventually. Perhaps I'll read for awhile. Since I didn't go to sleep at all last night, I think I'm feeling a little droopy. It's hard to tell any more, I'm so tired all the time.

    But I hope you are all managing to get through this day to see what tomorrow brings.

    I love you...GFW

Monday, 03 August 2009

goddessfourwinds

  • Visit goddessfourwinds's Xanga Site
    • Name: Call me Goddess lol
    • Birthday: 11/7/1966
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 2/14/2003
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About Me

  • I am called many things: Indigo/Crystal Elder, Lightworker, Neo-Pagan, Scorpio/Phoenix with Gemini Rising, Earth Angel, Dreamwalker, Bodhisattva, Communicator, Healer/Healer/Healer, both ENFP/Inspirer and INFP/Idealist (depending, of course)...and I am honored and humbled with each of these labels. I hold myself accountable and responsible for my life as I co-create my reality with The Divine through the manifestation of my intentions. I believe "What one does for Self, one does for the Whole; what one does for the Whole, one does for Self," and I strive to hold this ideal. I believe "All paths are sacred" and do not stand in judgment.

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